busy busy busy

im currently running in circles... figurativly speaking.
after tomorrow im basically done. as in done for the semester. DAMN this semester went fast.

anyway todays new topic is.... DUH DUH DUH DUH (rob will be proud of me for this one)

Free Loaders

I have a job.
you should get one too.

If i am hungry and want dinner i make dinner for me & 3 other people. thats really obnoxious because food isnt cheap. why is it that you feel the need to eat all my food. and then my personal favorite about the whole thing is you just throw you dishes in the sink and leave. no im not trying to be mean cause were friends and all and you have made me a few meals but for serious. i cant afford this anymore.

Friday i am making christmas dinner. i am also buying christmas dinner and from what i hear everyones going to drink my beers. beers are expensive from now on every party will be BYOB and if you cant pay you cant drink cause i cant afford. my car broke down you all helped me push it. but now you all make me feel like i suck because my car isnt here to drive you to walmart. so i put gas in your car. i have no problem because your driving my ass around but damnnn. whose gonna drive.. oh yeah you cant dirty look. did i want my car to break down no. did i ever ask or take gas money from you no. lay off.

i know im sounding mean but damnn for serious its getting out of hand. and then when im making a shopping list you want to invite more people. i said id make christmas dinner if i wanted to work at the soup kitchen id volunteer theirs already like 12 people coming.

i never spend money on myself unless its food and even then its not for me. im tired of having to worry about if ill have enough money to spend on something i want to do because im too busy spending money on you. GET A JOB! and if your trying i understand im not talking to you. but seriously COMMON!

Beyond that my roomate is going to date one of my best friends. im okay with it if she wasnt paranoid. he talks to me about when hes gonna do stuff and then she freaks out cause i know and she doesnt. so inevitably me & alec wont be friends anymore cause i dont want her on my ass to know stuff that i didnt want to know in the first place. and my ass your coming down to see "me" over break like im beyond cool with the fact that you want to see alec i mean hell im beyond accomidating you im inviting you and like 3 friends to my friends new years party so you and alec can be together. and im okay with it but dont lie and pretend your coming to see me it just makes you sound stupid. && beyond that NO ONE IS GONNA CATCH US DRINKING! we got one knock on the door one like 3 months ago and nothing since PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop freaking out i freak out enough on my own. and your freaking out doesnt help mine.

i cant wait to go home. and hangout with my friends who have money and can do stuff without me paying i cant wait to live at home where my parents are paying for my food. im soooo overrr this.