FUCK!

Im broke. beyond broke.

and my car is a pile of shit.

and i hate this fucking house..

not like ill get that far if i try to leave tho.. because IM BROKE && my car is a piece of crap.

fck fck fck.

you know what pisses me off the most about this. i fucking blame him. i fucking hate him. i didnt need this right now. and if i hear sorry or an offering of money one more god damn time were breaking up.

i dont have time to be poor right now buttt here i am.

i made it big after christmas. i had so much cash i was pumped. i was gonna buy video games and movies that i wanted. and now im fighting to pay my god damn cable bill i hate this sooo fucking much...

i didnt want this to happen. i didnt want this to happen like this.

who the hell am i? im not god.. who as i to play god.

but it wasnt even a question.. it was obvious cant ruin his future even tho yours is already ruined.

and now i get shit from everywhere my mother obviously no longer likes him and if she keeps talking about me breaking up with him im going to find a high place and jump.

i just hate this. and no one can fix it because no one has any idea what this did to me. no one even if you've been thru it.

im tired of crying.
im tired of asking for money.
im tired of working all the time.

i hate that im angry 24/7 but you would be too if you got one day of vacation and a shit car and no money. and now what woohoo i get to go back to school. YAY!

can i die yet?! please?