a whole bunch of random thoughts...
i am tired.
i am tired of whats wrong
i am tired of sadness
i am tired of twitching
i am tired of thinking about death
i am tired of dreaming of bad things happening
i am tired of thinking about every possible thing going wrong
i am tired of tired
i am tired of their actually being something wrong.
i am tired of having to convince myself i should keep going
i am tired of lying down and praying to god their is infact blood running thru my veins and that im living.
i am tired of complaining...i am annoying arent I!?
i used to think i had full control over myself. this i have learned is not true at all. but i dont want to be like this anymore. i want to be happy because i should be happy I have NOTHING to be sad about... i mean i cant even bring myself to be content. i find myself to be so depressing it makes me more depressed. whats up with that!??
- the semesters almost over and its going really well. next semester should be even better im going to learn how to play piano thats exciting. oh well back to work.
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I'd say try another medication...I don't know if you're off the Zoloft, but it can be making yourself worse, be warned a side effect is suicidal behavior.
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